He is leaving the company. Around two weeks ago, Eddie said that he needs to take a break from school and from work. I asked why he plans to also quit the job. It is possible to briefly stop studying, but still continue to earn money. He said he does not like the work. In fact, he never did.
Our conversation, however, boiled down to one thing. He plans to be a bum again. It seems that he is more productive in his creative writing if he has little to no distraction. I don’t get it. How can he be satisfied in staying at a backwater province, while relying on his parents for his expenses?
His drifter-like approach in dealing with his problems is quite annoying. I realized that he is a guy who does not have definite plans for the future, aside from writing. Doing what you like is admirable. But there I think there should still be a compromise for your craft and its sustainability. These are modern times and a starving artist is not something really appealing.
Despite these sentiments, I still admire his work as a writer. I don’t think my level of infatuation would be the same as before, though. He is too fickle-minded. I may have no boyfriend since birth, but I know that I can’t stand someone who is plagued by indecisions. People like that tend to be unreliable. Their habit does not make it easy for other people to trust them.
Perhaps I’m just too focused on my perspective. He is trustworthy—most of the time—when it comes to his work. It’s also unfair to think that he might be in a worse situation later just because he is capricious now. But as a friend, I think it is about time he takes charge of his life and starts thinking about a stable future.