March was a busy month for me. We had overlapping deadlines at work. I joined a group that went on an outing to a southwestern town in Cebu. I kept worrying about what to do for my possible graduate studies. I never found the time to update this blog, but I posted two entries in my other one.
That hectic schedule was useful in distracting me from my Eddie-related woes. I was able to stick to my promise of checking his Facebook profile once a week. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew that I wanted him to return my feelings. But I guess it’s not meant to be.
Last week, he reported to the office. He will be staying for three weeks and then he will attend various activities related to his graduate studies. I really can’t describe my feelings now. I guess it’s partially hopeful and partially regretful. I know that his interests do not jive with mine. If he is interested with me, I think I would have noticed it.
A few days ago, he attended a forum in the same school where I earned my college degree. Coincidentally, I also joined a separate event at the same venue. He came with a friend and asked me where the forum is going to be held. I showed them the way and I told him to send me a text message if he wants a tour of our school after their forum. He acknowledged my offer, but I did not receive any text message. He is not interested in me. Period.
I have never been rejected in terms of romantic agenda before. But I guess I can interpret this experience as a kind of rejection. I don’t think I’m going to talk about it at work unless someone asks. This has become a source of additional crisis and I have no idea how to find the opportunity in it.
Footsteps and Sighs 